Sunday, October 11, 2009

Everything happens for a reason...

As I was sitting in church today.. I realized I haven't posted for awhile on my blog, so I thought I'd take a moment tonight and post some recent thoughts and feelings. I wish I could start by saying the last few months have been extremely happy and easy but unfortunately, that's not the complete truth.. they have actually been a bit difficult and a major trial for me in my life. Some things that I loved and that were once "constants" for me, changed without warning and out of my control. Sometimes I think there is no worse feeling than your whole life changing all around you and there's nothing you can do to stop it! All you can do at that point is hold on and hope for the best! So here I am doing just that. I realized something this week.. that no matter how tightly you hold on to a hand that you think will make you happy, sometimes you have to let it go in order to find the happiness you've been looking for and deserve! I have lost my job of four years and someone I thought I loved very much this month, and like I said, it was all out of my control. I was counting on these things in my life to make me happy and be here for good. I couldn't have done anything to change those things, and if I could have, I probably would have, but sometimes you dont have that choice, its not your decision to make. But the one thing you can control is yourself and how you will react to the situation placed before you. Gosh, if anything in my life, I have learned that! There is one thing I know right now, I may not have a job, I may not have a man to share my life with anymore, but I do have the most amazing little girl that I get to spend everyday with and am so lucky to be her mom! I also have an amazing family and amazing friends. No one is as fortunate as me in that department, and just when you need them, they always seem to surface! For instance, tonight I received a suprise phone call from a long lost friend who I haven't spoken to in forever. . and it oddly enough it was exactly what I needed. He said all the right things I needed to hear, and reminded me of what I deserve, have to offer and to look forward to! He gave me the strength I was needing to find in that moment. It seems that God always knows what and who we need, when we need them.. and besides that, its always nice to have a little reminder that brings a big smile to your face! So my point is this, no matter what it is we have or are facing in life, we always have many around us loving and supporting and soo much to be happy and thankful for! I know I do. These are the things that help us all at the end of a long hard day, or month or year or whatever it may be. Life is uncertain and people are going to disappoint you, but all you can do is move forward looking at the bright side, learning from your mistakes and experiences and do the things you can do now to work towards the things you want to be happy in the future. Stop focusing on the negative, so you can see the positives standing right before you! One of my all time favorite quotes is "REJECTION IS OF THE LORD'S PROTECTION." Silly I know, but I can't tell you how many times in my life this has proven to be true.. and when the storms come pooring down, I remember these words and find comfort in knowing this. Everything happens for a reason and I truly believe what's meant to be.. will. We will all get our happy ending one day, whether thats today, tomorrow or whenever it may be, it will happen! Remember what you deserve and be confident and strong in who you are and where you're going and for anyone or thing in your life, that don't see it or the things you have to offer, that will be their misfortune. In the meantime, smile and be happy with the people who do and are in your life now and be thankful for what you have today. :)